Procrastination-
1.)The act of replacing high-priority actions with tasks of low-priority, and thus putting off important tasks to a later time.
2.)What I have done for the past 10 years.
I have a problem. I have wonderful ideas. Ideas for comic books, movie scripts, pitches for tv shows, comedy routines. However, I have no faith in myself to actually complete any of these ideas past 1 or 2 pages. I am so conviced I will fail that I just drop the project completly. I have the reasoning that if I try and fail then the dream is gone. But if I don't even attampt it I can keep it alive that much longer. I know, I'm sick.
I call it the "Citizen Kane Theory". You see, for years I had never seen Citizen Kane. It got to the point that I was explicitly avoiding watching it because it was known as the greatest piece of cinema created and I didn't want to ruin that idea. A few years ago I caved and watched it. To my horror, I hated it. I found it boring and highly overrated. I re-watched it 3-5 times that week and tried to enjoy it. But, every viewing ended the same way, me wishing I hadn't watched it.
I have one script in particular that I have been mulling over for 2 years. I have shared the idea with some people who feel it would be a huge hit and can't beleive I haven't persued it. They just don't understand. This is MY Citizen Kane. If I put my all into it and it bombed I can't imagine how I could go on. Dramatic I know, but I am a theater brat.
But now, I am enrolled in a writing comic books class that requires me to actually write something or fail the class. I am excited and terrified all at once. I am hoping that I get through this with some sense of accomplishment so I can move forward with some projects and get some much needed closure.
In December, when my comic is graded, I will post the results here.
